I LOVE MY LIFE!

PERTY!!!!!!!!!
Steph's gonna be 17 on sunday whoop whoop
cake disaster hahaha
dont ever bet someone to eat 2/3 of a cake for £3
it ends badly :P
anyhoos, yaaaayyy even though she's whipped!
party for steph sunday, plus i've coaxed david and seonaid into it too
anyways i'm making no sense
sooooo fucking happy!!!!!
i got put in for English this year
and that means i'm going to MOTHER TRUCKIN' ART SCHOOL!!!!!! (hopefully)
in less than a year i will be out of this hell hole and into a new one
but i'll own it!!!!
i actually can't wait
my own flat to fuck up
i'll never survive on my own but stilll, PARTYSSSSSS!!!!
getting my passport sorted tooo
and BENICASSIM in the summer
what better way to say goodbye to all your friends than for everyone to go to Spain for a festival
it is going to be amazingggggg
ooooh you me at six next weekend and tommy reilly the 25th for stephs birthday present
but yeah my life actually has a path to it now
and believe me nothing is going to throw me off it this time
eeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!
right i'll stop with all my excitement
awwwwwww i'm actually ecstatic likes!!
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and Steven makes me lol so much likes
he's an actual douche and listens to some pish
but he's actually great! wee piece a man candy hahahah
maybeeeeeee
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Seonaid told me when she was in glasgow there was the usual bagpipe player near the train station
but he was playing Party All The Time by Sharam
and there was an Iranian man dancing next to him
i actually thought it was brilliant and got out my headphones
as i'm so cool i have it :P
so seonaid and i listened to so
"my girl wants to party all the time, party all the time, party all the time!!"
it made me sooooooooooo happpy!!

sigh of relief much

today was terribleand i'm not going to moan about it
i was annoyed that silly things about my past relationship came out
little things i'd forgotten about till now
well i say little but apparently they weren't
so anyway, i was livid then upset then just didn't care.
then i remembered when me and stephanie made up
and we basically just put all the shit behind us
steph told me today that the reason i can't hold down a relationship is because i still care about him
and i can't be happy with it all cos i haven't moved on
yeah it is a horrible thing that happened to me
but i need to forget, it doesn't matter if i forgive, aslong as i forget and move on and get on with my life instead of being so angry and hatefilled all the time
so i came home, and as soon as i came on msn
a pop-up told me that samantha signed in
and i clicked on it and said
"hey. i know you have every reason to be annoyed at me, i've been a complete bitch to you. you don't even have to reply to this. i just want to say i'm sorry. i don't expect us to be friends. but i'd like to clear the air. i don't want any more pent up anger because of wilson."
then we talked things through a bit
and we both agree that it's not worth all the bitching and argueing
and that heavy feeling in the pit of my stomach is gone
everything feels a whole lot better now
and tbh i can forgive her, i've just been bringing it up in every argument because that is the only thing i have to clutch onto, the terrible thing he did. the only way i can win an argument
but i don't need to
i don't need to have these silly arguments over and over
i need to move on with my life
and so do you steven
find someone that makes you happy
we can be friends and maybe sometime in the future, when we have both grown up a lot, after art college and uni perhaps, when we are different people and we've had enough time apart to sort out the rest of our lives, to experience life to the full, when everyone isn't against us, we could try again
but for now, everyone knows we aren't right together
and tbh you know it too and so do i
so lets just make it stop. we are friends
i'll always have that wierd feeling towards anyone your with
but i'm not the only person in the world who feels like that way about someone
i'm nothing special, everything that has happened to me has happened to many other people before me
so this is me, clearing the air, and letting go of it all
so i can move on
<3

fudge you

i really can't be bothered with anything right now

but hey ho, thought i'd blog...

haha just remembered what dean said about my blogs haha

happy blog, happy blog, happy blog, period!! happy blog, happy blog, happy blog, period!

how lovely

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anyway, how can something be inconclusive

it's either going to be okay or it's not

stupid doctors. so yeah back for more tests in september

jesus christs, i needs my mammy

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also fuck it with relationships, i've done my little 'i want a relationship' stage

but it's really done no fucking goood

so i'm going back to the summer :P

i really don't care if you think that makes me a slag

cos i really just want to have fun and keep my mind off hospitals

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why is everything followed by drama

i know i love the drama :P but i just want a break from it

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BENICASSIM MOTHER TRUCKER!!!

omg can't wait.. me and steph in Spain hahaha living it up :P

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plans for this month :o

i need to party this weekend, anywhereeeeeeeeeeee

next weekend is Steph's birthday :) most likely at andy's

weekend after that is youmeatsix with david, jack and steph

then two weeks after is Tommy Reilly :D with steph and hannah

i needs to dye my hair soonish

and i've applied for a job so i can save up for Benicassim

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i neeeed to meet some new people

well by new people i mean guys :P

eurgh how someone can put so much effort in to talking to you

then suddenly one day nothing, ignorez vous??

ah well, fudge you. there's plenty of other folk in this world

132 followers on dailybooth, kinda proves i'm not the fugliest out of the bunch

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byeeeeeee

<3

i change my mind

i posted a song that i said was like me

but i think this one is much more appropriate

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I listened in,

Yes, I'm guilty of this, you should know this.

I broke down and wrote you back,

Before you had a chance to.

Forget forgotten, I am moving past this,

Giving notice.

I have to go,

Yes, I know that feeling, know you're leaving.

Calm down, I'm calling you to say,

I'm capsized, erring on the edge of safe.

Calm down, I'm calling back to say,

I'm home now and coming around, coming around.

Nobody likes to,

But I really like to cry.

Nobody likes me,

Maybe if I cry.

Spelled out your name and list the reasons.

Faint of heart, don't call me back.

I imagine you and I was distant, not insistent.

I followed suit and laid out on my back,

Imagine that.

A million hours left to think of you and think of that.

Calm down, I'm calling you to say,

I'm capsized, erring on the edge of safe.

Calm down, I'm calling back to say,

I'm home now and coming around, coming around.

Nobody likes to,

But I really like to cry.

Nobody likes me,

Maybe if I cry.

Encircle me,

I need to be taken down.

Encircle me,

I need to be taken down.

Encircle me,

I need to be taken down.

Encircle me,

I need to be taken down.

Nobody likes to,

But I really like to cry.

Nobody likes me,

Maybe if I cry.

Nobody, nobody, nobody,

Nobody, nobody, nobody,

Nobody, nobody, nobody.

Encircle me,

I need to be taken down.

Encircle me,

I need to be taken down.

Encircle me,

I need to be taken down.

ily

i'm sorry
i never meant to hurt you

<3

iya pal

MOST STUPID STUPID IDEA WE'VE EVER HAD!!!!

hahahaha. it really was, well so far ;)

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me, steph, jake, heeps, abbie, beca, david and jack all got to conor's after much confusion

and it was okay, thought it'd be great fun

seeing everyone, haven't seen heeps for months :o

then they started drinking,

and it was okay until everyone got really loud and was falling about the place

and wouldn't play never have i ever properly

so steph and i decided to play it alone really loudly next to them all

with statements that meant we could both drink

anyhoos, we went to go on the trampoline

and i slightly pushed david and he fell and rolled down the FLAT grass

anyway, i went after him and tried to pull him up,

but all he did was pull my arm down so i fell on top of him and he rolled over me.

it started to rain so we all went back into the summer house type thing

and everyone coupled up on the couch

and me and steph just looked at them, and i whispered to her

"is it too late to go to andy's."

it was like 10.15

we went outside and phoned michael, and he was like "please please come, i want to see ma wee petal"

so we went back in got my shoes on steph's bag and steph got her coat and carried her shoes and we just ran to the bus stop in the rain

steph put her shoes on haha.

and i was like uh oh, dunno if we've missed the bus,

then i remembered my phone is 3 minutes fast

so i was like "we've gained time haha"

got the bus to falkirk. and sat in graemestone station for like half an hour

talking to these men who agreed that it was a stupid stupid idea

anyhoos we got on the train and the plan was to hide in the toilet,

but the ticket man was standing right at the toilet and

we walked along trying to find another but there wasn't so we sat down

and had to pay the stupid fare :(

i was getting phone calls from andy and michael constantly

and we got off at waverly, and ran out to where the bus should be

but there was no bus, and no timetables

so we just ran and ran through busy edinburgh

to find a bus stop with a number 55 stagecoach at 00.25

finally we found one, omg such relief hahaha

michael phoned and i was like we found it :D

eventually the bus came, and it took up the rest of my money

and me and steph just sat on the bus plotting to kill this annoying woman

eventually we got to Rosyth and we were like eeeeeeeee

we're nearly there and we were all happy

and we got off the bus at like half one and walked up to andys

so we ran in the door at nearly 2 in the morning

and were like ARGH people shagging, just ran past them

and sat on the couch hahahaha

for ages we were both regretting it and kind of still are

then in the morning shaun hit sean over the head with a frying pan

which made it all better hahahahahaha

and we watched a frigin mutant film..... i hate them

but me and steph were like uh oh

we have no money for a train, cos we used all my money to get there

and we planned to hide on the train again,

but we kept saying oh we'll go for the next train.

anyhoos michael's stepdad ended up taking us to Bo'ness

which is a *cough* lovely place *cough*

we gots the bus, and went through mutant land

and eventually got to falkirk and were like uh oh,

we need an extra 30p to get home

how come when you need so little money there is no money anywhere on the street

so i was like maybe steven will be up town

so i phoned steven and he said he had 30p so we went down to the skatepark

and talked to him for a while and got a few hugs and a pound :)

eventually we got home, aided by 2 and a half freddos each

and i went on msn and had a talk with hannah

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(21:32) * LittleBσσts:
me and steph didnt have enough money for the bus home today. and i just thought wilson will give us some money. cos i still immediately think to tell him when i have a problem. which is silly. but i dont know what i want. we went down the skatepark to get like 30p from him haha and i just wanted to hug him for ageeees. i miss him a lot

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now you try and tell me i don't care and you were a last resort

i'm not argueing with you anymore

at the very least for now we can be friends

take it or leave it

the shit needs to stop.

Tegan and Sara

i was listening to "Back in Your Head"

and it just makes me think

woah that describes me fairly well..

have a listen to it

it's good :)

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Build a wall of books between us in our bed

Repeat, repeat the words that I know we both said

Relax into the need

We get so comfortable

Remember when I was so strange and likeable

I just want back in your head

I just want back in your head

I'm not unfaithful

But I'll stray

When I get a little scared

When I get a little scared

When I get a little

When I jerk away from holding hands with you

I know these habits hurt important parts of you

Remember when I was sweet and unexplainable

Nothing like this person, unlovable

I just want back in your head

I just want back in your head

I'm not unfaithful

But I'll stray

When I get a little scared

When I get a little scared

When I get a little scared

When I get a little

Run, run, run

Run

Run, run, run

Run

I just want back in your head

I just want back in your head

I'm not unfaithful

But I'll stray