confused much!

yeah i knew it was just some fun, but you've now confused me much
and that chat log with steph really got to me, i didnt realise yous thought that
but i thought i felt the same way as you,
but the way you went on about being worried, and you didnt want to hurt feelings and you felt bad cos you're not like that made me think
you're a really lovely person, thats why you're my friend
and everything steph said about you having a chance in the chat
is rather true probably, but it's not for the reasons you think
plus you said i'm not just some random lassie, but you're wrong when you talked about my options
my life is soooo much better than it has been
i've had so much fun the past few months but i'm getting to that stage, where i'm sick of it
and i hadn't realised it till wednesday night at stephs,
when michael said such nice things.
thanks for picking up on the fact it was getting me down, it was nice that you put your arm round me
and then last night, just sitting with you and chris was nice, cosy much haha
but i didn't think anything more of it, friends much
so yeah i suppose steph's statement about me is fairly true.

but the point is, that it's a bit of fun, and you should have asked me

you know who i want, you were going to talk to him hahaha,

and the rest of my options hahaha, a few im not interested in, a few it is impossible, one iv not seen in ages, another was a bit of fun, one im seeing soon and the other is the confusing option...

the god damn confusing option that is with the psycho

the confusing option that isn't an option really

i wish id gone camping...

.

.

There’s beats and there’s pulses and there’s

rhythm in the soul

and I try to stand quite calmly as I lose control

see this girl was here

and she ain’t no more

she loves this very floor

loves this very floor

Gimme a call

you’ve got a phone don’t you turn it on cause

I need to hear from you

do you know why

cause I saw something today that made it all come

it all came back to me

.

Nobody told me that tonight would be the night that I was due a little surprise

See I thought she was my friend but now I love her

But friends in love don't go together

From the start, as she gets in to the car she lets in enough air to startle

See I thought she was my friend but now I love her

Another drizzle keeps us together, if I was to say something

With all this weather my jacket wont stop her shivering but I'll give it anyway

And I thought it was a vague line between like and love

But tonight it's very clear to us

My jacket wont stop her shivering but I'll give it anyway

I'll give it anyway

And I've since blurred my thoughts I think tonight this could be nice

And I'm falling down on this judgement

Even though it isn't right

And I've since blurred my thoughts out

I think we should be moving on

And I'm falling down on this judgement

Even though it's wrong

Even though it's wrong

BARROWLANDS!

hahahaha

i know this was like nearly a week ago, but i still havent blogged about it ooops

we went to seee michael (steph's burd haha) play at the barrowlands

and we spent ages walking round glasgow getting drink haha,

we lost two bottles of vodka, one to the police, theiving bums haha

and one got dropped out the bottom of a shitty sainsburys bag :O

andrew and michael went off to the train toilets to put the vodka into the juice haha, they were away an abnormally long time :P

but yeah we may have been the littlest bitty non sober haha, and we spent ages outside before we went in, telling each other how pretty they were haha

but yeah finally went in, and steph got chatted up by some 30 year old haha

i goes to her, did you tell him you were taken?

and she said that shed gone, my burds playing here tonight

i was like o0o0o0o smooth for a drunk :L

but yeah when michael was playing i pulled steph to the stage, and she fell on her face, so i picked her up by her hand and dragged her haha, then the body guard was like naw pal.

and steph got kicked out, so jo went with her

then andrew came back to get me and we left hahaha

and walked about glasgow for a bit

and the drunken foo' steph lost her phone :O

hehehe, then andrew was like are we heading back to my flat

and we agreed, without knowing his flat was in DUNFERMLINE!

but yeah steph and michael got the bus back, and me jo and andrew were stranded much, and had an £80 taxi ride back!!!

and we got back to the flat, and as soon as we got there steph and michael and andrew and jo went to sleep, and i was like eh, i dont know these other people

but i was like fudge it and sat down and talked to them lulz

and they wanted to watch scary films

and i was frigin terrified, and jumped and screamed every two minutes lulz

i ended up hugging into graham, i was soooo scared

then andrew came back, with chilli

and we had an imaginary fight across the room lulz

oooooh and we has a secret hahaha, to keep to ourselves that eh.. everyone knows haha

and we all stayed up all night

twas fun, till me and steph realised we couldnt get home,

and scrounged train money :D

good times

pent up anger

i like you,more than i should,more than you could,ever like me too.when will i,see the light?and realise,this isn't allright.sorry if i seem a bit forward,i tend to read the book without reading the foreword,but i know that this will work out for me,i've got something that appears to belong to you, you see.it's not unlike me,to jump in without knowing,if your love is growing,if you love is showing.so please excuse me for getting too far in,if you said you liked me, what was i suppose to think?if you take the time you'll realise,why i thought it was mine for the taking.

sound familiar?

sounds like most relationships i've ever been in

at the moment i am truly in love with my tumblr and my dailybooth

56 followers betches!!

haha, therefore i must be doing something right, eh?

but hazel land took a massive blow,

the day i came home infact. my faith in mankind is dipping muchly

as it seems everyone feels, promises are made to be broken

the amount of chances i gave you was unholy,

you broke then one promise, the most important promise

and now you're no longer apart of hazel land

i know this sounds childish, but in all seriousness

doing that hurt me alot, and this time i'm not giving you another chance

you've made your choice, so stop with trying to guilt trip me back into it

and for fudge sake, when i say don't phone me/leave me alone/fuck off and die, etc

it means do not phone, text, msn, bebo comment me

you've fucked up an unholy amount

get over yourself, get over me, and grow up

i don't even take you seriously as a person anymore

this is me finally taking a stand,

and steph, if i start to waver on this

you have permission to slap me about till i reach my senses

anywhore on a lighter, much more happy note,

i'm happy.

relationships are out of the window for the foreseeable

i'm going to have fun, michael's gig saturday should be fun,

get to see my darling steph as she'll be back from la gay paris

i like meeting new people tooo

i've came across a number of people who are funny and i enjoy speaking too

shaun of course, we will camp, ya bitch :P damn you with your countdown, and of course i won!

craig smith is lulz, with his girly hugs haha

new steven :P, i havent spoken to you in a week or so, make me lul tho

will, who i came across just yesterday haha, random talks about leggings and the elderly

it truly amazes me the random crap i can find to talk about

soo my plans so far :L

i belive steph is home today, i really hope she is, i miss her

ryan invited me up stirling today, have no idea whether ill go or not

tomorrow is michael's gig at the barrowlands, which should be fun on a stick

sunday im seeing siobhan if all goes to plan, have a girly day :P

and next week is a mine field, anything could happen haha

but the week after that shall be hell,

i have to take my brother to summer school then bring him home

while having a social life around this, its going to cost me a frigin fortune

bus to denny plus brother, bus to where the party's at :P, bus to denny, bus home plus brother, bus back to where the party's at

WTF!!! however i am getting paid for this utter hell

and so ill also try to sneak in the buses getting paid for too :P

i don't think i have anything more to say..

oh apart from, if you ever even speak to me again you trampy hoor,

im not going to be calm and nicey nice, i was so utterly annoyed when i saw you on that bus,

i could have actually strangled you there and then,

then you swearing at me and trying to act all hard

clever of course, oh and what the fuck where you wearing, glitter words on your tights, are you 5?

and feathers on your shoes, and what the fuck was with your hair,

do not get me started on your face, seriously bulldog licking pish off a nettle springs to mind

so get you fat slagish repulsive self away from my life

i really do not want it tainted anymore than it has been

over and out!

Scotty Vanity

the most lulz song iv heard in ages,

the only thing that slightly rivals it is the lets go to the mall one

Hey there, I like your hair

Who does your hair? I wanna go there

Pshyeah, I like your hair

Who does your hair? I wanna go there

Hey bitches, my scalp itches

I'll do my own damn hair

Pshyeah

I need more gel

My hair looks like hell

Fucking bitches

Oh My God

Blondes, Brunettes, Redheads

More like dreadheads

Oh My God

Hey there, I like your hair

Who does your hair? I wanna go there

Pshyeah, I like your hair

Who does your hair? I wanna go there

Let's get a dike spike

Are those highlights?

That's a great color

Ooooh

Let's totally get a perm

Pshyeah

Time to retouch those roots

Bitches

Oh My God

Blondes, Brunettes, Redheads

More like dreadheads

Oh My God

Hey there, I like your hair

Who does your hair? I wanna go there

Pshyeah, I like your hair

Who does your hair? I wanna go there

Where's my flat iron?

Where's my flat iron?

Where's my flat iron?

Where's my flat iron?

Where's my flat iron?

Where's my flat iron

What a slut (excuse me)

But I like your cut (oh really?)

Totally

You're such a slut (You still think I'm a slut?)

Definitely

Blondes, Brunettes, Redheads

More like dreadheads

Oh My God

Hey there, I like your hair

Who does your hair? I wanna go there

Pshyeah, I like your hair

Who does your hair? I wanna go there

Hey there, I like your hair

Who does your hair? I wanna go there

Pshyeah, I like your hair

Who does your hair? I wanna go there

Oh My God

Oh My God

Oh My God

Just shave it off

what ze hell?!

right seriously, you are a dick

everyone knows it, so what the hell do you need to show it for all the time?

he's one of my very best friends, i tell him everything

plus i'd like to emphasise the word friends!!

you're not familiar with thus word as you don't have any

it's none of your business what happens between them anyway

what's the need, abusive phonecalls

they're hardly funny,

you actually can't keep out of anything

you phoned me constantly one night after seans party

anything that happened at that party has nothing to do with you

nothing to do with me and wilson has anything to do with you

you're a childish little dick

who thinks he's funny

oh and helping your "best friend"

seriously

no ones believing it

you take pleasure in hurting folk needlessly

so fuck off

i want nothing to do with you

but i wouldnt say no to help push the knive in

also wilson

if you had anything to do with this

you will regret it, believe me

he's been a better friend to me than you ever have

so dont disappoint me now

oh and also if folk think that we dyed our hair as a pact

how annoyed ill be is indescribeable

hmmm, anyone else for me to rant at....

i dont think so

so my world revolves around david :P

hes in elgin lulz

iv been there but according to him they all speak funny

and walk like dogs :L hahaha

i luled and told him of the rain farmers and hills hell encounter

home on wednesday

to slap the fools and hug my loved

:D

cannot wait

x.<3

chevaux rouge..

bad french spelling lol

scarborough was cosy warm

and nice, hella lot of ice cream and candy floss :P

and a loong time spent on the beach

and shopping lulz

anyhoos i dyed my hair finally

red tis the best!!

i'm in newcastle now and rather bored

i miss my stephy

and soonood and con con

and my lulz with mr. heeps,

and dear david

he's a cold hearted bitch

but my world revolves round him :P

home on wednesday YAY!!

there better be a hella lot of parties,

i wants to be busy night and day again

its how i live my life haha

tommy reilly in september!!

with hannah and steph :D

wooooooo

then yeah yeah yeahs in december wooo

actually cant wait

i want to see HP

oh and dont you fudging dare give my number out again you

fat assed ugly alien slag!!

and also its a question i wrote on a blog

you know, showing an interest

wanting to know you were okay,

plus it was written ages ago

get over yourself!

on a lighter note i saw 14 year olds with mullets :L

and massive hugs ftw craig!!

HOT!!

actually dying of heat
but do i care? no!

swimming yesterday with steph and conor
cos we is epic cool likes :P
free!!!
then went back to conor's for drinkies, champagne is all he had :P
so we drank it up
then we were ridiculously mean :(
soweee conor
nah not really twas hilarious at the time :)

we were about to leave at like 12 or something and they wouldn't let us
apparently we were to get a lift home
due to the fact denny is rape central ?! :S
but yeah we weren't happy but went along with this ridiculousness
we were standing on his drive and we walked to the bottom to laugh at a guy who stalled 3 times :L
then we got shouted at "where are you going"
i was like argh we wants to leave :P

then when we were eventually back at Steph's we went out

and walked around denny and dunipace for like 2 and a half hours

good times lol

i was hella tired but it was too warm to sit in the house

then getting bloody phoned at 5 in the morning

we'd only been asleep for like an hour god damn it Ryan!!

all in all fun night!!

party tomorrow in edinburgh

then party saturday and camping woooo